Q’s and A’s

I’m deeply loving engaging with all of your questions and comments. Please keep sending. Someone once told me I was like a dragon sitting on a treasure chest and thats not good haha! I have an absurd amount of insight and information on these things and I absolutely love sharing. Some Q’s I’m answering directly here and others I’m creating additional content or refining material to respond to them.

Q: I’m having a hard time connecting to my own spirit and therefore having a hard time connecting with my home body. I feel like this is the first and foremost step of all. It makes sense since I’ve been in such weird and major transition. 
Do you have any tips or tricks or favorite tracks that you like to listen to / routine that can help tap into reconnecting with spirit? I literally feel like an empty home/vessel bc I lost connection with spirit.

A: Intimacy with the abyss is the source of rebirth.

It does make sense. In a way your question/description holds guidance to your answer, your “reconnection.” In this deep transition it sounds like you have allowed your previous ways of connecting… to dissolve in order to evolve. You are safe. It is similar to how I describe (in module 4) the web of connection that dissolves as we dismantle a home when moving. In my experience, there can be a real neurological shift that emerges from allowing and being present with exactly what is… new pathways connect and open to light/spirit.

Cultivate intimacy with the abyss, the emptiness. It seems you can identify it mentally and describe it well. Now situate yourself in an environment you can access a felt sense of safety and ideally comfort. “Walk down” from your mental space into your body. What is there to meet you? Be present with any fear, anxiety (or other emotional forms) that are blocking you from making contact with the “emptiness” you describe. Drop your awareness towards your heartspace… what sensations are there? Into your belly …etc. Release any muscular tension that is ready to let go and observe how that shifts things.

Remember, the Void will naturally, eventually “fill.” Name your intention. And/Or sense it if it cannot be named. Hold it in your heartspace.

A helpful physical/energetic practice for me is lying down and working with the breath cycle as I describe in the audio recording “Resting in the Unknown: A Breath|Energy Exploration” in module 3. It explores what comes up when you “rest” in the bottom of the exhalation, the winter of the breath cycle (the unknown), and trust the inspiration/inhalation will fill you up again. All sorts of things can come up here: ex. physical sensations correlated to emotional energies. Potentially tightness in your solar plexus or chest/heart space. Your presence with the physical sensations and emotional tones allows things to shift and your body will naturally, if you can allow, open in a new way to receive the new breath, life force, spirit etc.

And REPEAT

I’ve also just added an older video session to module 3 working with the same practice. It offers additional language etc. So perhaps check out both.

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Q: Do you have any tips for making your current home (pre-move home) feel more like home as you're waiting for your move to happen? Context: my move isn't happening until spring of next year, and I'm very excited to move—it feels long overdue, and I feel like I've outgrown my current city for years now. I don't like the apartment I'm currently in—the neighborhood isn't super safe and management is terrible, and I live in an urban neighborhood so it's very loud. also, beyond the physical home, the city itself feels aggressive and ignorant. Any tips for helping me feel grounded / safe / at peace during this transition? 

A: (We spoke 1:1, some of my response below may be relevant to your case and some is what comes to mind for the general “you” (participant) reading. This goes for anyone reading: please take what resonates leave the rest.)

Yes, it can be counterintuitive but often you have to move in more fully to move out. This process often reveals more information. It’s like standing two feet in in a romantic relationship… the full picture and guidance will be revealed more clearly.

The Lessons/Contracts section in Module 1 is super helpful here. Understanding the deeper transition you are moving through, why you are there, why you are leaving, what parts of you chose to be there etc. will help you feel more at peace.

I also suggest to clients who have little points of connection and intimacy with their home because they don’t want to “invest” more in a home they are leaving… to invest more. Now this doesn’t mean you have to buy new things that are custom to a home you are going to leave. It is your heart’s investment I’m speaking to. So that could look like many different things to different people… in different spaces.

You “belong” where you are right now. Which does not at all negate that the energy around you does not match yours and that it is “taxing” you. It does not mean you need to stay in this home and town for longer than… you need to. But it does mean that it is “safe” for you to occupy your body and your current home space.

Discernment is key here, of course. Use your brain and ask your internal guidance if technically your safety is at risk here, if you are in real danger. Listen for an answer. (This can also be a helpful process so that more of you recognizes your technical safety if that is indeed the case.) I have experienced my own apartment burning down, flood waters filling my house to the ceiling, and a man murdered just beyond my doorstep. These were my homes and I was there for a reason but at some point the home scenarios were no longer safe and I was internally guided to safety. I have also been in work scenarios where I was in dangerous environments and picking up on some very intense energies from people but I was able to discern none of it was directed at me and that I was there for a specific purpose and not in direct danger of any “crossfire” from these energies. So while I could feel it all, I was safe and I was (internally) instructed to fully show up and offer my presence and my work. This is all very powerful and worth working through.

If your body is feeling technically safe but viscerally uncomfortable in your home, acknowledge it as you are doing. This environment no longer holds or amplifies my vibrancy. Deepen your relationship with your personal version of spirit support to work with the energy of your home as you work on intentionally transitioning out of your home. Feel the taxing energy of the management, the aggressive energy surrounding you, etc and ask for it to be lifted from your body, your home. The “unsafe” energy of the neighborhood, feel it, clarify that you are safe, and get specific about what you are feeling in the neighborhood… is it anger ? etc. ask that it too be lifted and your home hold your energy field. I used to do a visualization “building” sheets of light from ceiling to floor and across the ceilings and across the floors to seal my home and hold my energy. There are many techniques really. They need to resonate with you.

You can also use tools to help clear (my body often naturally does this but in some cases its too taxing), but ultimately deepening your relationship with your spirit being support (I always clarify that any energy working with me is also serving the divine) is called for. You do not have to do it all alone. You may need to ask regularly for this support in clearing.

Then practice feeling into your sense of safety and relaxing into your body, fill it up your home with your energy and energy that you and your body/senses love: sounds, smells etc. dance, sing, roll around on the ground, breathe, cook, laugh. The loudness you speak of will not go away per say but it will effect your nervous system less, it will ping you less when you move in further.

A leaky, taxing “cup” will take maintenance to keep patched up. So demand support in that maintenance and light up your little corner of the world with your pleasure. Remember: you must ask in order to receive.