Most mermaid like I’ve felt diving in this time. There was an actual mermaid bed to settle into animated island with boats in distant “I wanna be where the people are” but froze do I go or not. I felt lost all of a sudden. Frozen not much else happen.
Jumped in eagerly a spin as I jumped, lay on ground, didn’t see much water was very clear light blue almost white. Didn’t feel like getting up. I don’t want to have to “find something” you don’t have to effort you can just lay there.
Dove right in needed nothing to breathe … could not lie down at bottom had to imagine weights holding me down. Enclosed space. Alot of seaweed and there are things beyond I guess I should sit and wait but wait why am I waiting. Then I went and saw silver fish and circle of suns people and I realized I can be with everyone I don’t have to isolate. Came out of the “freeze” or the mental trap of just waiting for things to come to me
Dove off and became not myself - this time I was a siren primordial ancient being, a mermaid? I was in her consciousness and watching externally. She swims down and looks up and can see timelines of past present future. She did not want to get up and swim - she wanted to stay and witness and another younger mermaid part of her split off to go explore. “Its all part of the bigger the picture it will happen when its meant to and love is all around”
I went into the ground jumped off through the water into the ground. Very disoriented not necessarily pleasant. I could still breath, but can I still breath? Ok I don’t have to stay here. So I came back up and the water was so clear and the clearest it has been and so shimmery and full of light. “You get to choose”

Notes/Prompts/Ponderings:

https://divination.com/iching/lookup/22-2/

Hexagram 22. Grace and Beauty

A splashy sunset bathes the mountains in a soft radiance; the light of a full moon dances on the surface of a rippling river. Grace and beauty adorn the natural world. Grace is neither an all-powerful force nor an essential or fundamental thing. By itself, it is form without content. Grace is moonlight on water, not the sunlight at noon. Yet grace brings artistic expression into the world, and enhances the quality of our lives. Grace brings success in small matters.

In the arts, grace arises out of adherence to form: the dancer becoming the choreography of the dance, the musician giving life to a musical score, the painter becoming one with brush and canvas. In human affairs, grace is aligned with mastery of aesthetic and cultural forms honed by time and honored by tradition. Through appreciation of graceful forms in human culture, we apprehend the pure beauty of the ideal—of life raised above the struggle for survival.

Possession of grace, like the bearing of a beautiful gift to a wedding, can add stature to those in humble positions. Take care to lend grace and dignity to small matters while giving the weight of deep and careful consideration to matters of greater consequence. Though artistic flair should not be confused with true substance, it can take one far in this world.

A message for you what is being integrated:

Letting go of shame around being stuck and that it means something
The form can change
Enoughness, alignment, being on your throne, your people will find you but you have to show them who you are really, you don’t have to translate
Getting comfortable being pathless
Embodied presence and surrendering to reality, to what is, releasing resistance

Tarot Guidance/Contemplation:

Hanged Man reversed:

upright it is suspending you in place to shake loose some baggage, so you can see a new way forward, a different perspective… be with what is here right now to digest and make room for what is coming.

Reversed it could mean one of two things:

youve been in this and now you are a bit lighter and ready to move forward OR you’ve been resisting this and its time to surrender to it.

Session 3.5 - July 15th

Hesitating to jump - guessing fear? Orange color - fish octopus changing colors to orange. Alignment: ever-moving (body felt message: undulating). Focused on the rhythm of swimming, body oriented.
Smooth dive in, olympic dive, felt good. Not much activity in the water: little fish but more solitude, not lonely.
Diving into a pool. Cool blue pool color. Realized had not tasted the saltiness of the ocean - was tasting the chlorine. Message: I Dissolved into glitter: I am the water and a fish swam through me, through your left hand but first tried middle body but felt too aggressive
Clean dive off of the cloud. Swimming down feeling claustrophobic and swam back up for out of water breaths then good. Didn’t see too much, aware of presence of group. Alignment: saw nothing and then bubbles
blurry clouded turbulent waters. Stormy. Sitting cross legged in meditation at the bottom of the ocean. Feeling quite nauseous. Yellow vomit. The whale again. This time very ominous and looking. A dark energy to it. Upon asking what it is the answer was “sexuality. Shame. Guilt” to be integrated. Asked for a message and got: “let it go. Let it be.”
themes: there seems to be notes of “surrender” with all of the messages of alignment: dissolving, undulating, let go/be… even the bubbles arriving from nothingness

Notes/Prompts/Ponderings:

HONESTY:

An indicator of honest truth moving through is a sense of relief

“Honesty does not have to equal action” - you can hold the truth and inquire about why you are not taking action

Its tiring , energy drag when I’m not being honest vs Clear minded sharp energetic

Anxiety or an unease when not honest

Where does avoidance (of honesty) come in?

the fear around the internal realization changing the internal landscape and that having an external mirror effect
not wanting to take action yet

Other notable words and thoughts:

embodying the habits of the person you want to be
space as time, as freedom, as physical environment
also felt very vibrant to hear those experimenting courageously, honoring an inner directional prompt and then reflecting with honesty and curiosity around the experience of it and insight received

In a few words guidance for yourself for the week:

Commitment and follow through for yourself
Doing things a different way - I wish I knew a different way
Slow steady steps
Doing based on how it feels vs how it looks
Discerning the difference btwn honesty and fear
“your focus is no longer on fighting, protecting, or building”

Tarot Guidance/Contemplation for the week Five Wands Rx:

upright it speaks to the creative frustration of expanding to hold all of yourself. All of your parts (the players) are shouting to be seen and heard – to “win” . compassionately (and honestly) expand your ground of being to allow the messy the fire-y competition of the voices are actually what reshapes the landscape of your ground of being.

reversed generally speaks to coming out of this process and seeing more clearly the re-shaping, witnessing it, acknowledging the growth and new landscape and using the information preparing to move into the expansion of the 6s

Session 3.4 - July 8th

Very active, creature with the Light that hangs in front with big teeth, Active lots of glowing fish, eels, Could see my life on shore when I looked up and out, Really dark, black things illuminated when fish and eels went
Glitter which also saw earlier today on a walk, The glowing things were fireflies, Laid down but was in grass and could see night sky, Childhood yard in NC
I turned into a spider and it helped me stay on the ground and crawl on the sand, Saw a cave in the depths daunting but then the fish of light and balls of light illuminated and guided me towards it
Ethereal multicolored mermaid, Very willing to sink to bottom, Sky stars and glowing sea life, Big whale but not scary (normally scared) hugged the whale and tended to its harpoon wounds, Message: say yes (say yes to life)

themes: the glow was guiding, willingness to move into the dark, in the depths of the ocean also views on land/sky so a shapeshifting landscape of ocean depths and land/sky

Notes/Prompts/Ponderings

If you think you are enough then what motivates you?
Sovereignty and interdependence
true self found in between thoughts, the catepillar and true self experienced in the transition or the void : Picking up the foot from the old world and putting it in the new while simultaneously sinking into knowingness of true self in the inbetween

In a few words Guidance from yourself for yourself for the week:

Relationship and self love
Space focus dig inn
Trust receiving and ego death
Connection and community
Not living in fear, living in love

Tarot Guidance/Contemplation for the week Three Swords Rx:

Watch for where you mind wants to “fix” something versus just being with the sensations of the trigger or the pain. Allow the alchemy of presence to do the “work”

Session 3.3 - July 1st

themes/messaging: ominous energy passing over or near but also themes of safe distance, perspective, preparedness, connectedness, as well as playful and energized

Gear for breathing & goggles (more prepared). Release of anxiety: a shadow that came over the water like a cloud passing. Under rock: rainbow sand
Impending storm: heat lightening, Electricity = change with safe distance, in water connected to electricity in powerful way not dangerous. Indentation after picking up the rock and then water smoothed it over = change. Very warm water.
Warm, sensations of currents of cold. Bird energy .. I’m a bird. Message: Sand dollar. Small fish under the rocks - silvery.
Water very turquoise blue. Pink Starfish.
Joyful. Sun shining water really bright. A flip to get into the water. Enjoyable + not alone - presence of everyone in group plus friends. Pressure in ears - a little fear but ultimately joy. Under rocks: Pearl, crab, seaweed. Message- music, creative friend + romantic crush.
Dove right into water. Swimming and splashing. Mermaid tail. High energy. Under rocks: phone number on paper, jelly sparkly bracelets heart/circles. Shadow dark boat floating over and went on its way.

Prompts/Notes:

use a tangible example to conjure up the feeling/embodiment of worthiness enoughness. Allow the “example” to dissolve while maintaining the field of worthiness. visualize a tilled, fertile field: what grows? ask it questions
innate worthiness
“My presence is a present” (the internet says its kanye west but originally it was lil wayne i just cant find the song)
Through the week: Pay close attention to the voice of not enough, not worthy, not deserving etc … what are the different scripts? (i noticed one recently “why should i be the exception” when i didn’t have the “right documentation” for a government thing but my intuition said it would be absolutely fine. Also when the thought forms come up see if you can tune into the energy of that thought form. What does it feel like in your body? Bc often the energy of it is so subtle its not accompanied by the voice and we have an unconscious process of pushing it away… note what that kind of tension feels like. Relax it and allow the thought form to flow through and out. Catching this subtle process helps you weed it out again and again. So that its not part of the energy of what you are creating… also so that you are not “wearing” this energy and inviting external experiences of it in.

Tarot Guidance/Contemplation: King of Pentacles

Speaks to innate worthiness, owning it, creating from this wealth that is you. How do I sustain the integrity of authenticity? In all areas of my life. What do I need?

Session 3.2 - June 24th

School of silver fish. Playful
Resistance going in , Irritation, I don’t want to be in the water, Murky water, Message - you can clear the murky - but I don’t know how
Trying to settle in
In the cloud - snow angels, snow angels in the sand as well, Launched out of the water like a fish, Playful movement in water

themes/messaging: how can play clear the waters and invite me into my depths

Prompts:

Owning your “accomplishment” letting it “land” before you jump to the next thing that needs to be done that you have not yet accomplished, a skill you have not yet obtained, etc. (a versions of living in lack - noting the ways we impoverish ourselves). What does it feel like for you to bask in your “accomplishment”?
Play with building out and spending time in and internal landscape that lights you up and calls you in.

Tarot Guidance/Contemplation: High Priestess rx

Where and why am I hesistant to dive inwards. Where why am I avoiding or blocking internal guidance? High priestess rx speaks to a call inwards and inquiring or investigating what might be blocking dropping in… which could even look like gaslighting your own intuitive messaging etc.

Session 3.1 - June 17th

Rainbow fish, Hand, wet saturated sand - clay, cold, finding nemo

Rays of light, peaceful, Giraffe, Inhale thru snorkel & Exhale thru gills,
Finding Nemo, Injured fin asking for help, Sparkly school of fish, Oxygen tank
Gils, some kind of sea creature, soft sand Sun coming in, Very peaceful, Sexual energy is creative energy
Naturally can breathe, Aliveness and fertility, Coral, Stingray clearing a membrane

themes/messaging pointing to creativity, what was the “sting” the burst the membrane of creative innocence and in what ways do we “stick our neck out” (giraffe) to compensate and finally what is the antidote (stingray again) that clears the membrane that clouded our “sparkle”

completions & intentions:

Completion: quitting my corporate 9-5 job after 10 years of not feeling aligned to that world! Intention: give space for my creative Self to emerge and hopefully identify a tangible next step I can take to establish a new, more aligned life path.
Completion: Feeling ashamed/bad/wrong/selfish for my desires (telling myself I shouldn't have desire) Intention: Freedom (from my own limiting thoughts/beliefs) and Action
Completion: I am done with leaking energy to scattered distraction that doesn't feel additive to 'the creative vision', out of avoidance, sabotage, fear of moving towards it. Intention: To move from abundant inspiration and ideation into >>> consistent, devoted action to 'the creative vision', whatever is meant to make it tangible in this chapter. This feels abstract rn and would love any practical planning templates, exercises, etc you may have to suggest (likely a timer exercise? )

PROMPT: what was your first memory of “Creative Injury”?

venom, abandonment of self, enoughness, worthiness

Tarot Guidance/Contemplation: 5 pentacles rx / King Cups

I am complete with old ways of moving forward but currently in the dark with alternative ways of moving forward … starting to understand compassion, unconditional love will dilate the window of insight to show me the way.

Session 2.5 - March 8th

Guidance Moving Forward:

wise sociable turtle, white butterfly, sun, sparkle
bunny, terradactyl with wide wingspan
aerial view
stage set like “fake waterfall”

Podcast: The Consciousness of Creativity: Are ideas alive and do they choose us?

How can you sustain a living in a posture of giving, in the sense of sharing yourself?

Session 2.4 - March 1st

Guidance for this Week:

Salamanders: fire, passion, transformation/purification by fire, resilience, rebirth, regeneration, shapeshifting (“Its regenerative abilities are fascinating: it can reform parts of its body, including limbs, tails, eye tissues, complex organs heart spinal chord and even brain matter.”)
Ice, Cold
Party, tablescape warm food
Behind waterfall perspective

The superpower within that that’s allowed for me to develop a relationship with presence and with being that allows for me to trust and have faith, and also just the natural state of an artist is to have complete faith, unwavering faith in the ability for you to make this thing real that no one sees or can experience yet, but you. - Jon Batiste

Prompt:

The thing you don’t know how to do yet, the thing you need to embody to take the next step (to receive instruction on what the next step even is) that you don’t know how to be yet… Can you imagine with a confidence that you have felt within before that you in fact do know. Somewhere within you is that precise energy that is waiting to be stood in, owned and occupied and filled with your intention to know and use it. Can you stand in that space with the energy of confidence and ownership and ask questions and receive with your conscious brain?

There’s messaging in this week’s cosmic orientation and influence that really deeply honors and brings to forefront the importance of the creator within. No matter what projects etc you have or have not materialized, the shift to honoring the creator and intention to build infrastructure to support it is deeply meaningful “progress” for a larger shift for the individual, for humanity. The interesting thing about transformation/purification by fire is that post process you are not what you have been clearing... working on, refining. All at once you are an entirely knew thing. To quote my 7th grade communications teacher Mrs. Hough “You know more than you know you know.” And as I explore the prompt above myself, I’m landing deeper in where I’m meant to stand now even though it displays very little of my “progress” in life thus far. Here, referencing my accumulated wealth of self awareness, progress etc. is useless and I have to be careful not to build so I can use the previous “accumulated wealth.” And lean into the pool of wealth that I’m standing in that I do now know yet (looks alot like our imaginal waterfall pool even though I visualized that before I had arrived at this understanding). This is a new level of trust for me.

Session 2.3 - February 22nd

rustling in trees, lotsa trees
eel that turned into snake
seagulls, hawks, celtic fae
animals from africa? or disney land? lol, meerkat

Prompt:

Seeing this card and what i know about north node in astrology made me curious to hear (and/or for you to ask yourself) what are you moving toward embodying in this lifetime that feels impossible but you have a deep knowing that it is the trajectory or unfolding meaning you will open to this path or blossoming or embodying?

Podcast with Jon Batiste: Quest for Originality, How to get unstuck, Fav Mantras, Strategies for leaving a Creative Life

a few notes:

paying attention to/tending to the energy behind the action of creating
when you get the memo hang up the phone and follow the instruction, do the next steps
maintaining and conversing with the inner flame while sensing and feeling into the energy of the audience - will this glow be diminished, received…?

Guidance: Mitragynia

Session 2.2 - February 16th

Messengers:

themes of mystery, uncertainty: mist, is this (fish) underwater safe or not?
warms stones underfoot
cloudy but then able to open to sun and that shift - cloud to illumination

Session Notes/Prompts:

“Hurling” yourself into the universe - discerning when to “force/effort” and when to soften? Ex. moving out of a societal flow current might take more “force”
Contemplate Trust
“I am” presence (boxing, in your legs) What does is feel like to embody and “I am” presence
Contemplate Courage
A staying power: can you stay with the “trouble”? with the i dont know, with the fear, with whatever it is that you sense you are”avoiding” in fact what are your cues of your own avoidance and can you take them as an invitation into your staying power?
Misty mystery - is this safe? Is it not safe. Permission to ask: I don’t know what this is, tell me more
Honesty as an ingredient to finding your pacing. Ok this is what is here now. I know this. This I don’t know.
Trusting where you are (who you are, what you know etc) is enough to open to next step.
Ease in growth edges and challenges
The paradox of slowing down as things speed up

“The times are urgent: Let us slow down.” -Bayo Akomolafe

Guidance: Schisandra/Grace

Session 2.1 - February 8th

Messengers:

Snake: (here for the same warmth)

Spotted Cat: came from land to drink from water

Hawk? (diagonally flying bird overhead)

*perhaps the shedding/transfiguration is in service of the warmth even if scary… both jaguar and hawk speak to protecting the sacred, and vision/sight… all three messengers point to support on all three “floors”: stability (hips/legs) ability (torso) vision (head)

Intentions spoken and witnessed. Invitation to continue to refine them and name them again whenever. (Intentions @ what you are working on in this period and how you’d like the group and this container to support/how you’d like to participate). Also might be interesting for you to sit with and/or look up the symbolism of the animal messenger that came through.

Prompt: Relationship to the Unknown, the Abyss

How are you being guided to show up/meet yourself in the unknown right now?

quote by Terence McKenna:

Nature loves courage.

You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles.

Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up.

This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood.

This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall.

This is how magic is done -

By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it’s a feather bed.

A few instructions I heard in the group: (if there are one’s you want me to add please email! happy to add)

make contact with/be with the fear and uncertainty (is this the right direction?)
hurling is not the vibe Terrance
play and childlike delight
permission to embody the frustration and anger and allow it to move through, what’s underneath?
the physicality of the feather bed and what it feels like to embody softness and trust as a baseline underneath any waves of emotions and challenges

Session 1.1 - November 2nd

Dalmation Dad

Rabbit

Young Deer

Contemplating: the creator + the orphan archetype

Guidance: Two of Earth

Prompt:

Can you catch your mind shutting down your intuition this week? Could be words or could be a vision, a day dream etc. Can you widen that space between an intuitive ping/heart’s knowing/etc and your mental voice jumping in to “correct it”? Even if it’s just acknowledging the dynamic. What can unfold in that spaciousness? What sensations come up in your body? Where is your mind censoring your heart? And Why?

BEGINNINGS

“Beginnings often frighten us because they seem like lonely voyages into the unknown. Yet, in truth, no beginning is empty or isolated. We seem to think that beginning is setting out from a lonely point along some line of direction into the unknown. This is not the case. Shelter and energy come alive when a beginning is embraced. Goethe says that once the commitment is made, destiny conspires with us to support and realize it. We are never as alone in our beginnings as it might seem at the time. A beginning is ultimately an invitation to open toward the gifts and growth that are stored up for us. To refuse to begin can be an act of great self-neglect.

Perhaps beginnings make us anxious because we did not begin ourselves. Others began us. Being conceived and born, we eventually enter upon ourselves already begun, already there. Instinctively we grasp onto and continue within the continuity …

There is a certain innocence about beginning, with its excitement and promise of something new. But this will emerge only through undertaking some voyage into the unknown. And no one can foretell what the unknown might yield. There are journeys we have begun that have brought us great inner riches and refinement; but we had to travel through dark valleys of difficulty and suffering. Had we known at the beginning what the journey would demand of us, we might never have set out. Yet the rewards and gifts became vital to who we are. Through the innocence of beginning we are often seduced into growth.”

-John O’Donohue To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings

Prompts:

When should you begin?

What does beginning look like for you? (possibly challenging the notion of beginning)

Are you procrastinating or preparing?

What expectation/beliefs were you born into that may cloud or cause static or anxiety when you tune into your unique channel of truth?

*With the multiple mentions of Father and the overall context of re-parenting “the Orphan” and moving from truth while navigating the current societal landscape we are in this particular card description came to mind - the energy of the Grand Father. (from Vision Quest Tarot - Gayan Silvie Winter and Jo Dose)

Grand Father (relates to the Emperor)

In essence: protection - generous benefactor - ruling by serving - position of responsibility - help in moments of need - wisdom - elevation - nobility - courage - authority - reliability

Inner Message: The power of the Grand Father is always alive in us. As soon as you recollect this part of yourself, its qualities are yours. The Grand Father may also represent the physical father you never had or who was not there for you. Generally he stands for the ability to take matters into your own hands while granting you inner child the certainty that it will be protected and well taken care of. He represents the power of the grown man who has welcomed and integrated his feminine side. This makes him an inwardly complete unity. His intentions are no longer divided, so he can use his full authority for the benefit of beings everywhere.

Outward Manifestations: Drawing the Grand Father signifies that it is time to stop hiding your inherent strengths. Reveal them for all the world to see! Respect your inner authority and exude it - even at work. True responsibility is a responsiveness to life. Do not hide from this. You have gathered enough experiences and realizations. Now use them for your benefit and that of everyone else. The ability to grant spiritual as well as material help and protection to others is a tremendous gift. Remember the generosity of the buffalo. He gives of himself, he continuously emanates his strength. You too must give away without hesitation what the Great Spirit has bestowed on you in its infinite generosity.

BLESSINGS

From: -John O’Donohue To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings

Prompt:

Awakening your power to bless: If you were to write a blessing for yourself right now what would it address? or what aspect of your journey could use a blessing? if you feel up for it give it a go.

IN PRAISE OF FIRE

Let us praise the grace and risk of Fire.

In the beginning,

The Word was red,

And the sound was thunder,

And the wound in the unseen

Spilled forth the red weather of being.

In the name of the Fire,

The Flame

And the Light:

Praise the pure presence of fire

That burns from within

Without thought of time.

The hunger of Fire has no need

For the reliquary of the future;

It adores the eros of now,

Where the memory of the earth

In flames that lick and drink the air

Is made to release

Its long-enduring forms

In a powder of ashes

Left for the wind to decipher.

As air intensifies the hunger of fire,

May the thought of death

Breathe new urgency

Into our love of life.

As fire cleanses dross,

May the flame of passion

Burn away what is false.

As short as the time

From spark to flame,

So brief may the distance be

Between heart and being.

May we discover

Beneath our fear

Embers of anger

To kindle justice.

May courage

Cause our lives to flame,

In the name of the Fire,

And the Flame

And the Light.

FOR A NEW BEGINNING

In out-of-the-way places of the heart,

Where your thoughts never think to wander,

This beginning has been quietly forming,

Waiting until you were ready to emerge.

For a long time it has watched your desire,

Feeling the emptiness growing inside you,

Noticing how you willed yourself on,

Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.

It watched you play with the seduction of safety

And the gray promises that sameness whispered,

Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,

Wondered would you always live like this.

Then the delight, when your courage kindled,

And out you stepped onto new ground,

Your eyes young again with energy and dream,

A path of plenitude opening before you.

Though your destination is not yet clear

You can trust the promise of this opening;

Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning

That is at one with your life’s desire.

Awaken your spirit to adventure;

Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;

Soon you will be home in a new rhythm,

For your soul senses the world that awaits you.

Session 2 - November 8th

Guidance: Ten of Earth

Notes and Prompts

What are your beliefs surrounding the direction you want to go in, the experiences you want to have, the self you know you are beginning to embody, work or otherwise?
Can you identify feelings, energies, beliefs, internally or externally that may be in opposition to this, that may be demanding you continue to function from and embody an old version of self or a version that you are letting go of?
What does it feel like to sense into these oppositions, turn towards them, or feel where your body is responding/reacting/holding and allow you heart to soften and energetically spill out and flow into these spaces.
The solar plexus holds energies of confidence, motivation, will, desire to take bold action … what if the action is different than your mental space might think or than previous patterns/way of moving may suggest? For example (this doesn’t have to be your example): the bold action may not be putting yourself out there or fighting/bursting through the doubting voice or standing up to an external other. It may be boldly bravely allowing it to take full shape in your body while simultaneously anchoring in the heart space and pouring compassion around it.
And what “conditions” help this process? (lighting, warmth, bath, tea, breathing, a certain chair or corner of your home, a walk, a tree…?)

Visioning Prompt: Shape and Form

*this is a very embodied process even tho envisioning or imagining may take you up into your head… explore a full body visioning

Describing the shape and form, allowing it to emerge more clearly, creates a “space” for you to have a conversation with it

If you were to imagine your current work world as a landscape or a built architectural space what does it look like? Now imagine your desired work world as an environment - what does it look like? Spend some time embodying and exploring the desired work world letting it reveal more to you. Perhaps journal about it after. Another layer of information may be revealed in this reflection. Ask questions and sit with/in that energy and see if information presents itself.

If work world specifically doesn’t apply to you. Do this with a part of yourself that is emerging, or a longing energy, a desire to experience something energy etc. And it doesn’t even have to be this specific….

*I also want to challenge you if you are having a blankness or void or “block” come up. Stay with it. that in itself is a form to speak to, to engage with. In my experience this can be hard to stay with… almost “bounces” me out … but cultivate a staying power… really icky discomfort usually starts to show up for me and when I stay with all of that more is revealed.

“Shelter and energy come alive when a beginning is embraced.” (from excerpt above in session 2)

Session 3 - November 16th

Dust

Fool

Page of Cups

Notes:

Beliefs of Struggle.

Releasing old versions of courage, action etc and grieving them, missing them.

Trusting and allowing new versions to emerge.

Releasing obligation to the external. Coming into the cave of the heart and building that space out. Re-engaging with the external with a different devotion, priority, seatedness/vantage point

Prompts:

Ponder the energy of trust: What does it feel like to embody it? Can you embody it even when your mind doesn’t believe it?

Session 4 - November 23rd

Mountain Lion

“If a cougar (mntn lion) has shown up in your life, it is time to learn about and test your power. When cougars show up, understand that much of your trial has been worked through. Now it is time to assert. Know your power, believe in your power, and take action.”

“The cougar teaches decisiveness in the use of personal power. A cougar does not hesitate. The cougar teaches you how to bring out your power and fill your heart with it in a manner that will enable you to take charge of your life.”

- ted andrews

Notes:

trusting what unfolds when you take “risks” or make choices that are aligned with your heart, your truth
energetic stability in the lower floor to take risks in/of the heart
forms of currency
what you take for granted … i need an apple therefore ill receive an apple…

Prompts:

How do you hold delusion as expansion (allowing you to see beyond limiting beliefs and where you can go) while simultaneously being honest with your current reality and capacity (and not being delusional in bypassing the work of dissolving the energy of the limiting beliefs or whatever is “blocking” you?)
What does trust mean to you? Can you expand your “idea(s)” of what trust is? What are the different ways you can embody trust?

Session 5 - November 30th

Birds

Notes and Prompts:

Belief vs Knowing - snow anecdote

Yes. No. I dont know.

Spirit/Source support: show me - a willingness to not know and be shown directly.

When you know you know. What is your feeling of embodied knowing?

What is creative flow (to you)?

What is Bold action (to you)?

“Blowing up” to push through resistance … can you ask for gentle, to move with ease? Can you ask for support in the transition or the next steps to be more easeful?