index:
a circle of suns
a weekly warming space for the orphaned creative
Session 1 - November 2nd
Dalmation Dad
Rabbit
Young Deer
Contemplating: the creator + the orphan archetype
Guidance: Two of Earth
Prompt:
Can you catch your mind shutting down your intuition this week? Could be words or could be a vision, a day dream etc. Can you widen that space between an intuitive ping/heart’s knowing/etc and your mental voice jumping in to “correct it”? Even if it’s just acknowledging the dynamic. What can unfold in that spaciousness? What sensations come up in your body? Where is your mind censoring your heart? And Why?
BEGINNINGS
“Beginnings often frighten us because they seem like lonely voyages into the unknown. Yet, in truth, no beginning is empty or isolated. We seem to think that beginning is setting out from a lonely point along some line of direction into the unknown. This is not the case. Shelter and energy come alive when a beginning is embraced. Goethe says that once the commitment is made, destiny conspires with us to support and realize it. We are never as alone in our beginnings as it might seem at the time. A beginning is ultimately an invitation to open toward the gifts and growth that are stored up for us. To refuse to begin can be an act of great self-neglect.
Perhaps beginnings make us anxious because we did not begin ourselves. Others began us. Being conceived and born, we eventually enter upon ourselves already begun, already there. Instinctively we grasp onto and continue within the continuity …
There is a certain innocence about beginning, with its excitement and promise of something new. But this will emerge only through undertaking some voyage into the unknown. And no one can foretell what the unknown might yield. There are journeys we have begun that have brought us great inner riches and refinement; but we had to travel through dark valleys of difficulty and suffering. Had we known at the beginning what the journey would demand of us, we might never have set out. Yet the rewards and gifts became vital to who we are. Through the innocence of beginning we are often seduced into growth.”
-John O’Donohue To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings
Prompts:
When should you begin?
What does beginning look like for you? (possibly challenging the notion of beginning)
Are you procrastinating or preparing?
What expectation/beliefs were you born into that may cloud or cause static or anxiety when you tune into your unique channel of truth?
*With the multiple mentions of Father and the overall context of re-parenting “the Orphan” and moving from truth while navigating the current societal landscape we are in this particular card description came to mind - the energy of the Grand Father. (from Vision Quest Tarot - Gayan Silvie Winter and Jo Dose)
Grand Father (relates to the Emperor)
In essence: protection - generous benefactor - ruling by serving - position of responsibility - help in moments of need - wisdom - elevation - nobility - courage - authority - reliability
Inner Message: The power of the Grand Father is always alive in us. As soon as you recollect this part of yourself, its qualities are yours. The Grand Father may also represent the physical father you never had or who was not there for you. Generally he stands for the ability to take matters into your own hands while granting you inner child the certainty that it will be protected and well taken care of. He represents the power of the grown man who has welcomed and integrated his feminine side. This makes him an inwardly complete unity. His intentions are no longer divided, so he can use his full authority for the benefit of beings everywhere.
Outward Manifestations: Drawing the Grand Father signifies that it is time to stop hiding your inherent strengths. Reveal them for all the world to see! Respect your inner authority and exude it - even at work. True responsibility is a responsiveness to life. Do not hide from this. You have gathered enough experiences and realizations. Now use them for your benefit and that of everyone else. The ability to grant spiritual as well as material help and protection to others is a tremendous gift. Remember the generosity of the buffalo. He gives of himself, he continuously emanates his strength. You too must give away without hesitation what the Great Spirit has bestowed on you in its infinite generosity.
BLESSINGS
From: -John O’Donohue To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings
Prompt:
Awakening your power to bless: If you were to write a blessing for yourself right now what would it address? or what aspect of your journey could use a blessing? if you feel up for it give it a go.
IN PRAISE OF FIRE
Let us praise the grace and risk of Fire.
In the beginning,
The Word was red,
And the sound was thunder,
And the wound in the unseen
Spilled forth the red weather of being.
In the name of the Fire,
The Flame
And the Light:
Praise the pure presence of fire
That burns from within
Without thought of time.
The hunger of Fire has no need
For the reliquary of the future;
It adores the eros of now,
Where the memory of the earth
In flames that lick and drink the air
Is made to release
Its long-enduring forms
In a powder of ashes
Left for the wind to decipher.
As air intensifies the hunger of fire,
May the thought of death
Breathe new urgency
Into our love of life.
As fire cleanses dross,
May the flame of passion
Burn away what is false.
As short as the time
From spark to flame,
So brief may the distance be
Between heart and being.
May we discover
Beneath our fear
Embers of anger
To kindle justice.
May courage
Cause our lives to flame,
In the name of the Fire,
And the Flame
And the Light.
FOR A NEW BEGINNING
In out-of-the-way places of the heart,
Where your thoughts never think to wander,
This beginning has been quietly forming,
Waiting until you were ready to emerge.
For a long time it has watched your desire,
Feeling the emptiness growing inside you,
Noticing how you willed yourself on,
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.
It watched you play with the seduction of safety
And the gray promises that sameness whispered,
Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,
Wondered would you always live like this.
Then the delight, when your courage kindled,
And out you stepped onto new ground,
Your eyes young again with energy and dream,
A path of plenitude opening before you.
Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life’s desire.
Awaken your spirit to adventure;
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm,
For your soul senses the world that awaits you.
Session 2 - November 8th
Guidance: Ten of Earth
Notes and Prompts
What are your beliefs surrounding the direction you want to go in, the experiences you want to have, the self you know you are beginning to embody, work or otherwise?
Can you identify feelings, energies, beliefs, internally or externally that may be in opposition to this, that may be demanding you continue to function from and embody an old version of self or a version that you are letting go of?
What does it feel like to sense into these oppositions, turn towards them, or feel where your body is responding/reacting/holding and allow you heart to soften and energetically spill out and flow into these spaces.
The solar plexus holds energies of confidence, motivation, will, desire to take bold action … what if the action is different than your mental space might think or than previous patterns/way of moving may suggest? For example (this doesn’t have to be your example): the bold action may not be putting yourself out there or fighting/bursting through the doubting voice or standing up to an external other. It may be boldly bravely allowing it to take full shape in your body while simultaneously anchoring in the heart space and pouring compassion around it.
And what “conditions” help this process? (lighting, warmth, bath, tea, breathing, a certain chair or corner of your home, a walk, a tree…?)
Visioning Prompt: Shape and Form
*this is a very embodied process even tho envisioning or imagining may take you up into your head… explore a full body visioning
Describing the shape and form, allowing it to emerge more clearly, creates a “space” for you to have a conversation with it
If you were to imagine your current work world as a landscape or a built architectural space what does it look like? Now imagine your desired work world as an environment - what does it look like? Spend some time embodying and exploring the desired work world letting it reveal more to you. Perhaps journal about it after. Another layer of information may be revealed in this reflection. Ask questions and sit with/in that energy and see if information presents itself.
If work world specifically doesn’t apply to you. Do this with a part of yourself that is emerging, or a longing energy, a desire to experience something energy etc. And it doesn’t even have to be this specific….
*I also want to challenge you if you are having a blankness or void or “block” come up. Stay with it. that in itself is a form to speak to, to engage with. In my experience this can be hard to stay with… almost “bounces” me out … but cultivate a staying power… really icky discomfort usually starts to show up for me and when I stay with all of that more is revealed.
“Shelter and energy come alive when a beginning is embraced.” (from excerpt above in session 2)
Session 3 - November 16th
Dust
Fool
Page of Cups
Notes:
Beliefs of Struggle.
Releasing old versions of courage, action etc and grieving them, missing them.
Trusting and allowing new versions to emerge.
Releasing obligation to the external. Coming into the cave of the heart and building that space out. Re-engaging with the external with a different devotion, priority, seatedness/vantage point
Prompts:
Ponder the energy of trust: What does it feel like to embody it? Can you embody it even when your mind doesn’t believe it?
Session 4 - November 23rd
Mountain Lion
“If a cougar (mntn lion) has shown up in your life, it is time to learn about and test your power. When cougars show up, understand that much of your trial has been worked through. Now it is time to assert. Know your power, believe in your power, and take action.”
“The cougar teaches decisiveness in the use of personal power. A cougar does not hesitate. The cougar teaches you how to bring out your power and fill your heart with it in a manner that will enable you to take charge of your life.”
- ted andrews
Notes:
trusting what unfolds when you take “risks” or make choices that are aligned with your heart, your truth
energetic stability in the lower floor to take risks in/of the heart
forms of currency
what you take for granted … i need an apple therefore ill receive an apple…
Prompts:
How do you hold delusion as expansion (allowing you to see beyond limiting beliefs and where you can go) while simultaneously being honest with your current reality and capacity (and not being delusional in bypassing the work of dissolving the energy of the limiting beliefs or whatever is “blocking” you?)
What does trust mean to you? Can you expand your “idea(s)” of what trust is? What are the different ways you can embody trust?
Session 5 - November 30th
Birds
Notes and Prompts:
Belief vs Knowing - snow anecdote
Yes. No. I dont know.
Spirit/Source support: show me - a willingness to not know and be shown directly.
When you know you know. What is your feeling of embodied knowing?
What is creative flow (to you)?
What is Bold action (to you)?
“Blowing up” to push through resistance … can you ask for gentle, to move with ease? Can you ask for support in the transition or the next steps to be more easeful?